Wow, I have a follower! Welcome my new friend. : ) That sort of freaks me out! But for some reason, I feel compelled to just keep going and being real and honest. I am being REALLY honest. Putting nude photos of my fat body on the internet is crazy! But, I want to start being true to myself. I think the body is beautiful, God's creation. There is nothing cheap or sleazy about the human body, mine included. I am learning to love myself and it starts by being able to love all of me. Seeing myself naked in a photo gives me a bit more perspective on my body image. I don't look near as bad as I thought I did. And if I don't compare myself to people who do a lot of unhealthy things to be thin, then I can appreciate my body as it is. I really do feel I have almost gotten where I want on my body image thinking. I can love who I am at this size.
My struggle is mainly how to surrender to my addiction and accept that reality, let God heal me, and continue to always seek accountability.
Speaking of struggle, I was feeling very bored with my food choices for today. Already bored with the food. BUT, maybe some boredom is exactly what I need! I don't even care about the food I eat. I just want to feel good moving around through the day and I felt that today. No headache today.
I jogged two miles today. It was ugly-slow, but I did it. In fact, it was way easier than I thought it was going to be. That felt really good.
Today was a good day. Day 4
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